my LOneliness

Okay, my classes have been finished. I have known my study result. I am proud enough of it, and hopefully it will be better next semester.

Holiday has been lasting for 11 days. Many of my friends have gone back to their hometown. This city, Malang seems so silent for me. I feel lonely, just few people whom I can talk to. I hear from my heart that my body wants me to bring it back to my hometown, but I can’t. I make it a little bit more patient because there are many responsibilities still have to be done in this city. But they can’t be done immediately. Needs more time to finish them.

Now, in this evening when I am writing these words, I am in my room. I just opened this house’s door and saw outside. It is drizzling, so cold, and I closed the door. I opened the curtain and saw outside through the window. The leaves are wet. The sky still dark, but not as dark as my feeling. Everything I saw looked like unfamiliar. I felt like stay here in a few months ago, when I hadn’t lived in this city yet, when I hadn’t recognized any people here yet.  I don’t know why, maybe because of my loneliness. My friends who usually came here have been in their hometown with their family, nobody comes here again until this holiday ends. So quiet and silent in this room. No laugh, no shout, no joke. I am absolutely alone, I am bored. But I can’t get out from this boring situation. Sometimes I tried to break this silent by listening to music or watching television. But I can’t do this continuously. I still found bore.

 I tried to find out one of my friends that may be able to accompany me, but no one has free time. My old friends who study in another university have hectic schedule. Oh God, It is torture.  I hope I can finish all of those businesses as soon as possible, so I can go to my hometown earlier.

My friends what are you doing now in your hometown ? I am sure that all of you are happy now. No loneliness,  no bore. But there just happiness and cheer. I want to be like you. May god get me in a better situation then.