Okay, my classes have been
finished. I have known my study result. I am proud enough of it, and hopefully
it will be better next semester.
Holiday
has been lasting for 11 days. Many of my friends have gone back to their
hometown. This city, Malang seems so silent for me. I feel lonely, just few
people whom I can talk to. I hear from my heart that my body wants me to bring it back to my hometown,
but I can’t. I make it a little bit more patient because there are many
responsibilities still have to be done in this city. But they can’t be done
immediately. Needs more time to finish them.
Now, in
this evening when I am writing these words, I am in my room. I just opened this
house’s door and saw outside. It is drizzling, so cold, and I closed the door. I opened the curtain and
saw outside through the window. The leaves are wet. The sky still dark, but not
as dark as my feeling. Everything I saw looked like
unfamiliar. I felt like stay here in a few months ago, when I hadn’t lived in this
city yet, when I hadn’t recognized any people here yet. I don’t know why, maybe because of my
loneliness. My friends who usually came here have been in their hometown with
their family, nobody comes here again until this holiday ends. So quiet and
silent in this room. No laugh, no shout, no joke. I am absolutely alone, I am
bored. But I can’t get out from this boring situation. Sometimes I tried to
break this silent by listening to music or watching television. But I can’t do
this continuously. I still found bore.
I tried to find out one of my friends
that may be able to accompany me, but no one has free time. My old friends who
study in another university have hectic schedule.
Oh God, It is torture. I hope I can finish all of those businesses as
soon as possible, so I can go to my hometown earlier.
My
friends what are you doing now in your hometown ? I am sure that all of you are happy now.
No loneliness, no bore. But there just happiness and cheer. I want to be
like you. May god get me in a better situation then.
